You don't have to explain yourself

You never need to explain yourself & you don't always have to understand why.

When we are so consumed with the idea that we have to explain ourselves in order to feel validated, we lose ourselves. So many times this year I have caught myself feeling the need to justify my feelings in order to validate my emotions or control other people's perception of me. I decided that I am done trying to explain myself. Sometimes I don't know why I feel what I feel and that is okay. It is okay if you don't know why. Trust in your life's plan and purpose. Don't go through life trying to understand everything -- its impossible.

You do not owe other people an explanation for the way you live your life. I have never been someone who loves going out or staying up late. For the longest time I felt like I needed to justify this feeling. But honestly, I don't know why I am like this, I just am and that's so cool.

Like I mentioned in my last post, I have been feeling an influx of anxiety recently. Whether it stems from the anticipation of change, an overwhelming amount of schoolwork, or just my mental illness kicking in -- I am really trying to dig deep and let myself be.

We subconsciously feel the need to explain everything we do. I am really trying to stop expending so much energy trying to find a reason why and simply living a life that feels natural for me.

Healing is not linear. I am healing my relationship with the need of explanation. Here are some examples of things that never need an explanation:

-Project move. Daily movement is critical for my mental health. No explanation needed.

-Fueling my body with whatever food it is craving. No explanation needed.

-Doing my work where and when I want to. No explanation needed.

-Not answering all of my text messages. No explanation needed.

-Going to bed early. No explanation needed.

-Not going out. No explanation needed.

-Calling my mom. No explanation needed.

-Posting my silly little thoughts. No explanation needed.

-Needing my alone time. No explanation needed.

You are so loved. You never have to explain the way you are.

XO,

Mo