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You are exactly where you are meant to be.

  • Writer: livingwmary
    livingwmary
  • Jul 11
  • 3 min read

Hello my beautiful people!


Today marks five years of Morgan's Message and 9 for 9 honoring Morgan Rodgers who tragically died by suicide on this date in 2019. As I have battled with my own mental health struggles for years now, I felt compelled to speak out today in hopes of helping other people feel less alone (which also helps me!)


I have always been incredibly passionate about speaking out about mental health whether that be with the people I meet, posting on social media, or seeking out my own treatment. Lately, I have noticed I have put this on pause due to many factors. Mental health struggles come in waves. I felt like I was doing so well for so long and didn't "need" to go to therapy for a month. While I have been having the best summer that I can ever remember, it is so important to constantly be taking care of yourself no matter how good you may be feeling.


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The past few days I have fell back into a pretty dark place and am not sure why. I tend to beat myself up for feeling certain ways when there is not an explanation attached, but I am here to tell you and remind myself that your feelings are valid and you do not need to explain yourself to anyone, including yourself. I completely broke down today and have been overcome with lots of emotion. When I feel this way it is easy to search for feelings of comfort -- staying in bed all day, isolating, and just wanting the pain to go away.


I have also noticed myself falling out of the habits that make me feel my best and I really want to start getting back into them again. It is never too late to start over!!! In complete honesty, I have been having a hard time finding the courage to post, write, or podcast about my mental health struggles recently and I am not entirely sure why. Am I scared of judgement? Am I trying to suppress my feelings? I am not really sure but I want to break out of it and writing right now is my first step in the right direction.


Life can feel really hard sometimes. It can feel lonely. It can feel overwhelming. It can feel sad and scary. But all of these feelings are temporary and the light is always at the end of the tunnel even if it takes time. My mom looked at me tonight and said "Mary you have to trust that you are exactly where you are meant to be". This is a quote that I have always lived by but have not been reminding myself enough recently.


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Going into senior year is so exciting but also feels very emotional and intimidating. I feel like summer is moving so fast and just as I am getting adjusted to being home I am going to have to go back and adjust back to my life at school. Don't get me wrong, there is SO much to look forward to but time is precious and life moves fast and I am really starting to realize that.


With that being said, LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO SPEND AT WAR WITH OURSELVES. I have been so hard on myself lately regarding my appearance and it is truly a waste of time. Why am I pouring so much time and energy into worrying about how much I weigh, what size my clothes are, how my skin looks, what I am wearing, how others are perceiving me...Its time to stop worrying so much about whats on the outside and start putting more energy into how we feel and living our lives for ourselves. Getting caught up in my appearance never makes me feel like my best self.


No matter what you are going through, what you are feeling, or where you are -- it is going to be okay and its all temporary. Please know that you have so much to offer the world and you are meant to be here even if it doesn't feel like it right now. It can be so easy to fill our lives with constant distraction and stimulation to avoid our feelings. But I will be the first one to admit that it catches up to you and it doesn't last. Rather than running from our problems, its time to face them head on and be okay with the feelings of discomfort. Don't get caught up in all of the bullshit you are seeing on social media. You are not meant to live life like others, you are meant to live life as yourself.


You are exactly where you are meant to be. Tomorrow is a new day. All we can do is take life one day at a time!!!

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You are so loved

XO, Mo

 
 
 

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