Be Curious

I am really working on learning to give less f*cks. Like seriously. Don't get me wrong there are many things in life to take seriously but at the end of the day, life really isn't that serious. Let yourself feel. Lean into discomfort. Get curious. Ask questions. Be your authentic self. Surround yourself with people who understand your energy. Work hard. Be passionate. Go outside. Do the things you love. Move your body. Express gratitude. Be kind. Continue showing up.

I think getting deep and leaning into your thoughts and feelings is really cool. I find myself asking the question, "why" a lot about a lot of the things in life. I worry about the past, present, and future and feel like I am never doing enough or the "right" things. But what kind of way is it to live like this? Pretty upsetting right. I am deciding to take back control of my mind through practicing the self-care habits that I have created for myself. This included - writing. Writing about mental health and sharing my thoughts with others is one of my favorite things to do, but I don't always find the strength to do it. Sometimes I get too caught up in the ways of the world and forget that some of the things our society praises really is not that important. So I'm back! Hi!

Next thought, I have been thinking about time a lot recently. Honestly, time is one of the biggest aspects of my OCD. Time scares the shit out of me and lately I feel like its running out. I am learning to sit with this feeling rather than try to numb my thoughts and ignore the way I uniquely perceive the world. With this idea in mind, I am very mindful of my energy and how I spend it. Your energy is the biggest gift in life - it is literally so precious. Time and energy. It sounds cliche but if you really think about it we would be nothing without these two things. What matters in this life is how you utilize your time and energy. Don't waste it on people, things, or thoughts that make you question who you are!!!

These thoughts are slowly turning into action. Actions I am intentionally implementing gradually in order for it to be lasting. Its okay if you have fell into habits you are not proud of. Maybe things you are scared to admit to other people or emotions you don't want to draw attention to. But our struggles and challenges in life are necessary. Necessary in order to grow, build character, and have the ability to be grateful for all the good this world has to offer. I am who I am today because of the obstacles I've endured, just as the obstacles I face now are shaping who I will become.

Okay welcome to a slice of my brain,

If anyone ever wants to chat about the deep stuff HMU!!!

Xo,

Mo